At some point in time most parents go through a patch when one feels that one has failed in that role. I feel that way now. There is a part of me that wants to forge ahead but hitting the brick wall with such shock and unseen force can do crazy stuff to a person’s morale.
If I have to blame it’s me. I’ve been too pre-occupied with myself over the past few months that I have essentially screwed up a future. Doubt I’d ever forgive myself. Doubt the kids would too. Once they are old and brave enough to tell me…